I'm sitting here thinking about all of the times I've said... "this is it, this time, I'm going to lose the weight". I wonder a lot where I would be today if I had actually followed thru with what I would say. Obvisouly there's no way to go back and there's no use in thinking about what could have been, but I am absolutely going to make this change. I'm going to do this for myself because I deserve it. My willpower is weak. No doubt about that. But I will not give up.