Starting Over Again... Almost

Posted on July 15, 2015

My first few days of this DietBet were great! I ate well, I exercised most days and I dropped 3 of my 6.5 pounds that I need to lose. Then, life happened. It just so happened that it was the week of our 4-H Acheivement Days and my kids were doing lots of baking for the judges. Good baking. Baking that needed to be sampled.

Ok, so maybe it didn't need to be sampled, but I forgot to tell my self-discipline that. Baking day was a week ago now and there are still goodies around and guess what. I am still eating way more than would be healthy for a person trying to count calories.

I get so enthusiastic about losing weight and winning money that I start out well, but that is not a enough to sustain my enthusiasm. I have been evaluating the whys of my weightloss journey. Why do I really think that my current weight is too much but 15 pounds lighter would be so much better?

My conclusion is that I really do like feeling healthy and fit. I like that my clothes fit better when I am down 15 pounds. I don't like to shop, so getting heavier means that I don't like the way my clothes fit which means I may need new clothes which means shopping and I hate shopping... you get the picture. Also, when I am closer to my goal weight and fitness level, I feel more attractive and sexy and I think my husband appreciates that. When I am at my heavy weight - like now, I don't feel very attractive. Don't get me wrong. My husband is wonderful. He loves me no matter what my weight, but my perception of myself makes me feel less worthy.

Oh, yes. This weight loss business is much more then numbers on the scale and numbers of calories to count. My mind is my greatest enemy on this journey.

As a follower of Jesus Christ, I believe that He wants me to take care of my earthly body and I believe He will give me the tools I need to do it. He just can't do it for me. That requires me following the healthy living plans that I know to be right and dealing with the things in my brain that sabatoge my efforts.

I am going back to counting calories and working out in the mornings. I read an encouraging weight-loss success story today. https://www.yahoo.com/health/stevens-155-pound-weight-loss-you-have-to-find-123574702722.html One of the tips he shared was his mantra of "no two bad meals in a row."

I think I can do that. I will start there.

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Lori R.

07/16/2015 7:48AM

Great post!!! The struggle is real. I forget that I am trying to make better choices ALL.THE.TIME. Trick is to keep at it!!

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Paula C.

07/15/2015 8:31PM

I haven't been doing this long and was looking for a group that mentioned the need for prayer in this lifestyle change. So glad I read your blog! I too feel drawn to take care of this earthly body and have not always done a very good job. I know he will give me the strength but I have to give up if that makes any sense. Good luck on your journey and God bless.

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Paula C.

It's a diet that was developed by a young man who nearly lost his life to crohn's disease. The idea behind the "diet" is to eat those things that God created for us to eat. He wrote two books. The first is called the Maker's Diet but really isn't a diet book. More of a healthy living book. The second book is called the Maker's Diet for Weight Loss. Both are very good.

Darla S

Sounds interesting. Thank you for sharing!

Maureen H.

07/15/2015 1:17PM

Darla,I feel again like you just wrote my story. I have 15 to lose. I did great for the first 7 days and than feel off the wagon for two. I am working hard to get back on today and still achieve this win. Not for just the money, but for every reason that you said. I too pray and believe of the pose of prayer. I am lifting both of us in prayer that we can do this. I wish it was so much easier, but feel much more encouraged after reading your post

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Darla S

I am sorry to hear you had an upswing on your scale. It is a frustrating journey, but I believe that by diligence we can eventually reach our goals!

Darla S

Oh, and thank you for the email address. I may put it into use some day!