Thank you so much to Farah for posting on the you tube videos for back episodes. So, tonight I got on the elliptical really not feeling it.... Logged in to youtube & watched Staci's episode. Staci with two young children a husband who had a stroke & the bread winner for her family. Thinking I would do half an hour, HECK NO! Watching her reminds me of ME. Putting myself in last position. Always being "Fat Pat". Why as Mom's, girlfriends, wives whatever do we do this?!?! My daughter will be three in September. I don't want her to remember me as the "fat mom". Seriously! I know shoot me for thinking/saying this but I don't want to embarass her or her father. Yes I know, that's a negative way of thinking. However, I don't want to be that person so I WON'T. I refuse to let myself. So, even if I don't "win" this diet bet... I am a winner. I have already started my journey. Now I just to keep looking back at this post & reminding myself of this. I AM worth it, I AM important, I AM ME! Thanks again Farah for that post... you triggered it ALL over again! :D Hope all are well. Best wishes & happy losing!!!