Me at age 14 back in 1994. I can't believe I though I was fat!
I lost 7.6 pounds this week and I'm feeling really good! I got a crash course in high-carb vs. low-carb, and what meals are good for which days. I do get a little nervous about my high-carb days. I am still stuck in the late 90's/ early 2000's when it was pounded into my brain that carbohydrates were bad for you. I am now starting to learn that there are good carbs and not-so-good carbs, and working to find that difference. Nevertheless, I feel great and I hope I can keep this up.
Speaking of the 90's...
I have been stuck in the 90's for other reasons this past week. I went to the Salvation Army thrift store to look up records recently (I should have said that I'm stuck in the pre-cassette age, as well). I didn't find records, but I did find cd's of the Cranberries and Alanis Morissette. As a result of THAT purchase, my four-year-old knows all the lyrics to Zombie, and drivers who cut me off when I'm listening to You Outta Know better beware of me channeling "Angry Alanis". Those two cd's, mixed with a show on VH1 called Hindsight (about a girl that goes back in time to 1995) has truly sent me in a time warp!
The 90's was a time when I was in high school and my one responsibility was doing my homework, which I didn't do so well. I think we all look back on our teen years and say "I wish I" or "I should of". I should have taken school more seriously. I should have tried out for the swim team. I should have taken better care of my body. Heck, I should have been proud of my body and not tried to cover it up all the time! I was so healthy and I didn't even know it! I wanted to be so much thinner and never realized how beautiful I really was.
I know reality is much different than the show Hindsight. I can't go back in time; however, I am making changes now. I wasn't a great student, but I am a wonderful student now. I was healthy but going down an unhealthy path, but now I am unhealthy but going up a healthy path. I didn't love myself then...but I am really starting to love myself now!
So as far as wishing and saying that I should have done anything, I am happy to say that today I am proud and today I am happy. And that's enough for now...
...except I really wish they would have a My So-Called Life reunion show. That would make me REALLY happy.