I did it! I made my first dietbet game and it feels good. That's probably the most fun I've ever had losing weight and i still had to will myself to the number! I'm back in a new one and feeling good about it. I want to work even harder. I know I have a next level and I'd love to buckle down and get into a routine. But before I start talking about what I need to do to be successful, I want to take a minute to talk about how I need to feel.
I've been trying to come to terms with the unhealthy patterns i've fallen into to get me to this point and the bigget obstacle I've ever had was within my own mind. You cannot get to goal weight by beating yourself up there. I'm not talking about pushing yourself at the gym, I'm talking about the awful shame-cycle style food shaming you do every time you take a "bite" off-plan. IT'S ALL OKAY. Yes, moderation is important. Yes, lifestyle changes are important. Anyone who has been dieting for a while has probably learned something along those lines by now. You already know that part. It is NEVER going to sink in if you expect yourself to be perfect and you punish yourself when you aren't.
So this time i'm going to be sooo kind. Not easy on myself by any means, but kind. The way i would be to any other stranger. Encouraging myself and pushing myself; believing in myself and loving myself. It's funny how we can our biggest critics but in the end, that only leads us to being our biggest period.
Be kind, carry on, get after it. No excuses but no cruelty.
Here. We. Go.
-Kay