Out of my shell

I'm troubled to hear that someone called you "disgusting looking". People can be shallow and misguided. Your body did what it was made to do, and it went through some changes. There is absolutely no shame in that. You're beautiful. Now you're going to work toward getting slimmer and stronger, which is awesome. Do that for yourself, so you can keep up with those kiddos and have more energy & feel better. As as you get a body that looks better to you, remind yourself that it's fantastic to rock a great-looking bod, but also take JK Rowling's approach to criticism about her temporary weight gain after having kids and roll your eyes at these ridiculous people who think it's their job to police the weight gain of the rest of the world.