Today was a tough day. I joined this game on Thursday hoping it would give me more accountability in my quest for weight loss. However, off the bat, I'm finding this isn't the case. Im a very emotional eater, and today that got the better of me. I recently moved quite aways from home, and had some family come in from out of town today. It's always hard to see them leave and hear about what I am missing out on at home. Historically, and today, this is when I turn to food. I know I shouldn't. I know I feel bad immediately afterwards and even worse the next day, but for some reason, I still choose to binge.
Hmm... "choose" is an interesting word choice there. As soon as that sentence came out, I realized the significance of that verb. If I had simply said "I binged", there would have been an implication that I didn't have a choice. However, "choose" implies that that is what I elected to do with my time, even though I knew how it would affect me afterwords. I'll try and keep that word choice in mind tomorrow, the day after, and in the future. I just saw a quote that read "If it's important to you, you'll find a way to do it. If it's not, you'll find an excuse". I think this is an excellent example of that. If I really want to continue down this weight loss path, I need to find my internal motivating reasons and push myself to move forward. No excuses.