I want to cross my legs again

Posted on October 21, 2015

Ever had those moments that stick out like a photograph etched in your mind? The first time you learned to ride a bike. Your first real sleepover. The day you taught your kid to tie their shoes. Well .. how about the day you realized you were too fat to cross your legs any longer?

I was sitting there, enjoying the day, minding my own business and in a rather chipper mood and went to go cross my legs and ooooommpphh .. my leg just slid back down again. It was awkward, embarassing and any trace of a good mood I was in vanished as I had an inward conversation with myself. What happened?! How did I get here?? I've always been able to comfortably cross my legs .. was it my love affair with chicken wings and french fries that I like to dip in ketchup AND homemade ranch simultaneously? Was it the Indian food buffet I loved to frequent when I was feeling blue? Was it my late night Netflix binges on gummy worms and white cheddar popcorn with copious amounts of red wine? I don't know what happened exactly.

Fast forward to today. I'm about 15lbs heavier than even the picture I've attached and decided two days ago that I've had enough. I am a tiny bit wary of failure, but much more ready for a change and to get healthy. I would love to hear your story and feel encouraged as we all walk this road together. Cheers to the strength to be able to make the million little daily decisions that will lead to one great big lifestyle change..

Xx - Amber

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Amber

11/09/2015 1:14PM

I sure love you Sarah G!! You are definitely not on this journey alone, you beautiful thang, you.

Sarah G.

10/21/2015 12:35PM

I weigh the most I have since Carlie was born. Somehow I just keep packing on the pounds. None of my clothes fit properly and I look (and feel) old and tired. I blame my constant back pain, stress, my age (43!) and lack of time, but really it is that I get lazy and i am addicted to food. Especially the not good for you kind!I have accepted (begrudgingly) that I am going to have to make some changes and that there is no quick fix for me. I am started to pay attention to what I am eating and I am trying to get up and move more. I am going to have to take the slow and steady route. And now I know I will not be on this journey alone!Love you cuz!Sarah G

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Amber

I didn't know you were on here, cousin!! I was so excited to read your post. You made my day. Thank you for sharing your heart and where you're at. I know that it's not about weight and it's the inside that matters (you're beautiful in all ways) but I also know that I want US to feel good about the skin we're in and take care of the body God gave us. I just love you to bits. We can definitely do this!!

Aileen P.

10/21/2015 11:16AM

Hi Amber! I've been "on the journey" for 6 years now. My original starting date was October 19th, 2009. I weighed 210 pounds, thought I should probably weigh around 175, and I was sick of looking and feeling the way that I did. For six months, over the fall and winter, I worked HARD. I had to learn how to exercise and relearn how to eat. But after those six months, I had somehow managed to lose over 70 pounds. It was insane. And awesome. After that, I had my second child and had to re-lose some weight. Not a big deal. I had the tools to do it. And that time around, I started to run and grew to LOVE it. I LOVE RUNNING! So crazy for me. I then had another kid. A year after he was born, I needed to lose a few pounds again. I did a Transformer last November to this May and lost about 15 pounds. Felt great again. Sadly, this summer I had a rough time and fell into some old habits (that wine and those buffets sound PRETTY familiar!). I now have about 20 pounds I would like to re-lose, and this Transformer should get me most of the way there.It won't be easy. It probably won't be a straight path. But I'm going to do it.And you totally can, too. Keep plugging away, and you will get there. Don't forget to take some starting pictures and measurements. I forgot to do that last time, and I really wished I had. Going to do mine today, if I can!Looking forward to getting to know you better....now that I've written you this novel. lol

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Amber

Aileen, thank you so much for sharing some of your journey. It's stories like these that we all need to hear and be reminded that we're in this together. I look forward to getting to know you better too and you go, lil runner girl!!