Day two- Obstacle one.

Posted on December 14, 2015

I am overwhelmed with the amount of support I'm receiving here. I've never had so much support, ideas, and just people who understand where I am at.

Yesterday I went to a Christmas party, that wasn't too bad. It was good to be out around my friends and family. I managed to keep it to just one helping, and my plate was mostly vegetables instead of stuffing, turkey, potatoes and gravy like it usually is. I didn't even go for dessert.

Today though, I've had back problems since 2011 when I fell (repeatedly) on sheer ice, going to the hospital. I wrecked my back pretty badly back then, and now the slightest jolt will throw my back out. I've had ex-rays, recently too, and the Doctor gave me meds for it and said to get rest. My knees pop too and hurt when I work out, so I try take it easy, but I am not going to make excuses for it.

Today I had oatmeal for breakfast, which is one of my favorites. Not a giant bowl like before. I was eating so much before yesterday, that I would eat until I was too full, and still full by the next meal. Today I keep reminding myself in moderation. I just had a lettuce sandwich for lunch and some orange juice. Still not following a nutrition plan yet, mainly focusing on cutting down what I eat, and switching junk for veggies.

I have spent so much on junk food this last few months. I'm cutting that out and putting all that junk food money to healthier foods. I'm going to check out that Willitary Fitness on youtube, and keep track of what I eat. That's the basis of my plan right now.

Once I can move around easier, I want to start using the community gym we have here. It's only a couple of minutes from my house on foot, and they have great exercise equpment there. Treadmills, ellipticals. What held me back was that there are kids there, and large windows. I have always been overly self conscious, and told myself I didn't want to have people watching me, or chancing that they might laugh at me for using something wrong. I didn't want to hear kids with their "look at the fat lady trying to work out." I know it's all just in my head. I know I have to look past all of that and just focus on me.

Thank you to everyone,

I am definitely looking forward to this journey now that I don't feel so alone.

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Karraeb

12/15/2015 5:39AM

Good job at the party! And I think getting used to a small change is a good idea!

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Jenny

Thank you, it has been the easiest part of this already.

LilyN

12/14/2015 3:59PM

I'm self-conscious too. I tried going to a gym, but I felt so awkward that I'd rush through whatever work out I was doing, or I'd find an elliptical off to the side and hide. I also tried jogging, but I was self conscious with all the other runners in my neighborhood. And it was rough on my knees and ankles. I've found that what works for me are short DVDs that I can do at home, all by myself! I get to stop when the DVD stops and I don't worry about anyone looking at me. It might be trial and error, but just keep trying things until you find something that you actually don't mind doing

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Jenny

It's hard when you can't focus on anything other than what people might think of you, right? I am trying so hard to get past that but it's just always on my mind. I do have short dvds, but rarely a minute to myself. Our house is small, and there's always someone in the main room, plus if it comes to moving around everything shakes there and I get self conscious that the neighbors hear the house shake. I really enjoy the JFit videos on youtube though so I just dance a little in my room every day. :) Thank you for sharing

Jenny

Thank you, yes I am looking at Willitary Fitness right now and that is exactly what I was looking for, because from what I've seen so far it's all done in a very confined space, and that's how my house is. Very little room to move around.