Hello.

It's me.

I'm going to overshare because that's what I feel like doing. :)

I'm 27 years old and last summer I married my high school sweetheart.

While planning for my wedding my parents were getting a divorce.

Never would I have ever imagined that their separation would affect me so hard, considering that I'm an adult, and I knew they were so unhappy. I felt like someone close to me had died. (I ended up gaining weight for my wedding instead of losing, but that's another story.):

Now in January, after 2015's highs (wedding/honeymoon) and lows (divorce/aftermath) I am so grateful that everything feels like it's falling into its proper place.

I feel so complete now that I'm finally married, and that the wedding planning and expenses are over. I'm also relieved that my parents are not together anymore because, honestly, it was long overdue. And my mother especially has finally started to find herself, and find true happiness. I am so proud of her.

I guess what I'm trying to get to is this:

Life is about choices. About making the hard calls. Everyday we all make decisions that accumulate towards a certain result, depending on what we choose. I hope we all choose happiness, because who wants to live a miserable life?

If something doesn't spark joy, just don't do it. You owe nothing to no one. Life is so, so short. Let's make the most of it. I try to remind myself to show myself love by treating my body right: eating and exercising. Today was the second time I've gone to the gym since my last post, and I feel really good.

I'm starting to change my habits, not by imposing an impossible new life for myself, but rather by noticing how I currently live my life and tweaking the habits I'd like to change.

For instance, I realized that during intense stress, I *used* to give myself a free pass to eat anything to alleviate the stress and focus on what I needed to do. After noticing this, I decided to substitute binging for drawing/coloring sessions. HAHAHAHA that sounds so childish when typing it out. But really, for me it works. I love art.

I'm really proud of myself for doing well this past week and a half.

I hope you're doing well on your personal journey to showing yourself love.

~Yvonne