Lose weight the fun way.

Posted on March 4, 2016

3/4 Actually game #4 Transformer started back on Jan 1 but I was in the middle of some other Kickstarters so, yeah.

A lot has happened since I last checked in.

#1 = my A1C is now 5.4. The lowest in my diabetic history. A number I am truely proud of. I checked in at 9.8 in August 2015. I was surprised that I haven't felt carb deprived MOST days. Searching for and eliminating added sugars in the family's food has greatly helped I think. We have made the conscious decision to eat "real" food. It has been a slow change, but a sustainable one I think.

#2 = I spent $ on myself. I just don't normally do that unless I HAVE to. This time I rewarded myself for the above accomplishment by buying 3 new-to-me pants in my new size 18. I can still wear my old size 22 pants in public without a belt, but I do find myself constantly hiking the pants up during the day. I can put an arm inside the waisteband. In some pants, I can put 2 arms inside the waisteband. I will donate my 3 largest fitting 22's back to Goodwill. I thought about keeping 1 pair of my largest pants to be able to see my progress, but honestly, I can do that at the store, like I did the first time I found out I could now wear 18's. I tried on a 22, a 20, and an 18. And who needs to keep that kind of baggage around?

#3 = Today was my lowest weight since Nov 25, 2015. 217.4 Is this the start of another deline? Have I finally busted thru the plateau? I know the doctor said plateaus are needed to reset the body but they are God aweful to mentally deal with. If I am actually dropping again on my own, I am reluctant to fill the Rx for phentermine. HUbby is right, there is something amazingly cool knowing that this weight loss is 100% me (well, not really since I am on insulin and Invokana). Ok, 100% mentally me.

#4 = New Life Hiking Spa in September! I am going to a spa! For a week! To help lose more weight! I really am looking forward to this. Alone time with my mom in Vermont. I am going to spend more $ money on us since she is footing this bill. I want to try out multiple types of massage and spa treatments.

#5 = Con #1: I don't know how to buy shirts. Pants are easy, shirts are not. I have only considered getting new shirts because I am starting to feel the need for new bras. I hate bra shopping too. Why do I need new pants when I don't need new panties? How is that? Or am I in denial and I need new panties too?

#6 = Con #2: I am starting to like my face again in the mirror but my body profile still betrays me. I still look so fat. What the fuck did I look like before?! I can see the changes in my skin and bones but my gut is still sitting on my lap. Am I going to need skin removal surgery? I don't like the idea of that. I see my Grandmother when I see my gut. Skinny everywhere except there. An apron of fat over the pubis. It is getting smaller but there is no tone. Will it become a flap of skin when the fat is gone? Will the fat be gone? I find myself touching my collar bones, like Pirwaki, and rib cage under my breasts. Nice! And then the never disappearing blob of gut. blug.

#7 = Thoughts: I read somewhere that healthy habits is just replacing "bad" addictions with "good" addictions. I don't like thinking I am addicted to anything. I know I am to food. I just don't enjoy the thought of being addicted to Dietbet. yuck. I am feeling better about myself. I am feeling stronger. I am enjoying the conversations that are happening at home with the hubby and kids regarding food, exercise, and health. I know this is a long slow journey.

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LilyN

03/07/2016 9:58AM

Great job Ada! Buying clothes has been a mixed bag of emotions for me. Being excited about new sizes, but still being disappointed in how some things fit. I'm trying to change my mindset to frame it as the clothes are not the right cut for me, not necessarily that I don't fit the clothes. Also, I agree with Pirwaki, I held off on the new undies, though I had to get new bras probably first new clothes I bought since the girls were the first to go with weight loss. Once I got the right sized undies, I was amazed at how baggy the old ones were.

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Ada G.

03/06/2016 4:41PM

3/6 I am having a major mental battle going on in my head at the moment. I want more food than 1500 calories is giving me. It doesn't seem sustainable. Or rather the ratio of carbs at 1500 calories feels too little, when counting ALL carbs, which before this monthly challenge I was not. I don't mind eating clean, low to no processed foods, time consuming foods. I really don't. I just want more.And I don't want to sweat anymore than I am. Time I am willing to give. Pain I am not. I don't want to be uncomfortable.As I write this I see a whining child! Quit the bitchin'! Dammit you can't have the cake and eat it too, no pun intended. But I am hungry. I want more food. Every food, calorie, exercise calculator out there limits me to 1500 a day to get to my goal of 160. Fuck.218 lbs / 9521 steps before my evening walk / 3.75 miles / 523.6 calories / 108 minutes

LilyN

When I started out, I tried to meet my calories goals by just limiting the normal unhealthy foods that I ate. It was difficult and I felt hungry. As I've changed up my eating, I've found that I can eat a lot of food if it's healthy. Do you have favorite "volume" foods that you can fit into your calories? Like zucchini, broccoli, shrimp, etc? Also, try cycling your calorie counts up and down throughout the week. I read a few body building forums where they are hard core about their nutrition. One forum had a calculator that I wish I could find again, but for my weight goal it would alternate between low calorie days of about 1200 to mid-calorie days of 1500, then high calorie of 1800.

Pirwaki

03/05/2016 5:18AM

Ada! This is fantastic! Your sugars!!! I remember from my flirtation with pre-diabetes, my sugar was 5.9. I was in the clear at 5.4. Are you on your way to reversing diabetes, lady?? I THINK YOU ARE! Keep it up! This is so exciting!!!!!! Also, I loved reading that you're buying yourself new clothes and new experiences, like your spa trip in September. I look forward to hearing more about all of that. You're going to have such a different body by the time your trip comes! Oh, and I'm really happy to read I'm not the only one who constantly touches her own collar bones. ;-) RE: underwear, I find I generally can get away with wearing them longer while pants sizes are dropping, but when you finally DO bite the bullet and buy new ones, it's like, "Oh, THIS is how they're supposed to fit! What took me so long?!" But no one really sees how your underwear fit, so in a way, they matter less than pants and tops. All this to say, your progress is outstanding and you should absolutely be VERY proud of yourself! I'm proud of you! Keep it up!

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Ada G.

Thank you Pirwaki. :D Although today I might have answered my questions regarding underwear. Was on an incredible run/jog/walk with the family today, and on a downhill sprint, had the sensation that the undies were falling down under the pants! lol Time to get new one!