Morning weigh-in: 158.8
Goal weight: 155
I've been hovering between 159 and 160 for about five days now, and it's refreshing to see the number drop, if only a tiny bit. Plateaus are funny things - I tend to do a pretty good job of not getting discouraged by the number. My clothes start fitting better, my parts get a bit less jiggly (thighs say what??), and I definitely feel better. I can tell when I'm doing good because my digestive system isn't wonky and I'm not bloating like a Macy's parade float. All that being said, I'm a goal-oriented kind of gal, and that number matters to me. It's what motivates me. And it's good to see progress, even if it's only 0.2 pounds at a time.
155 is a rather significant weight for me. I grew up with a wicked fast metabolism and in high school I was a completely out of shape, perfectly svelte 120lbs. When I gained my freshman 20 I was a bit unnerved. Getting to 150 left me feeling pretty bad about myself. I was about 140 after leaving bootcamp in 2009. I remember joking with my (then boyfriend) husband that if I ever hit 150 again he'd have to leave me. But he didn't, obviously - even when I hit 160, and he married me at 170 - which is the heaviest I've ever been in my life. I know getting older means that the pounds are going to pack on, and not all of them are going to fall away. And to be honest, I'm pretty content at 160 - it's funny how being heavier has warmed me up to a number that I would have been horrified at once upon a time. But 155 for me means putting in the extra effort and showing up for myself. I'm not sure I'll be able to maintain it once I get there, but I want to start my 30s with a mindset of self investment. I spent my entire 20s yo-yo-ing and struggling to appreciate the body I have. I want to spend the next chapter of my life proud and confident, committed to building the body I want... which is NOT my skinny, 20 year old body that I didn't work hard to get, or my softer 29 year old body, which I also didn't work hard to get. I want a strong, healthy body that is somewhere in between. Somewhere like 155.
And the only way to get there is a little bit at a time.
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As for my update: Eating yesterday was great. We broke down and got takeout from the lebanese restaurant for dinner, and I was good. Just got some chicken lentil soup. No cheese, no pita. My calories for the day were 1,216. Took our walk in the morning, and then we did P90X3 Total Synergistics in the evening, which was rough. My big focus yesterday was water intake and I managed to hit 116 OZS!! That is huge for me. On a regular day I struggle to hit 20. Put some lemon and ginger slices in there to make it a bit better. It clearly made a difference.
Today we got up and did our walk. I think I'm going to hop on my elliptical for a couple of hours later and get caught up on some TV. Going to make the stir-fry I meant to make yesterday for dinner tonight.
Hope you all enjoy your day and are seeing progress (no matter how small) as well! Cheers!