So, here goes !
I've been going back and forth but after a small setback in my game this week decided I would give an attempt to this blogging thing, even though it feels a bit weird putting all this out "there" :)
I was so so very proud of myself, I had been consistently loosing weight, and had been saying no to the sugar monster that normally had so much power over me. (I'd gone a week without - yay!) And wedensday night in a moment of stress I made the concious decision to have ice cream for dinner and decisions like this continued through Friday afternoon. I can't explain that decision, but I can say that I have moved on. that indeed, I can forgive myself and continue with the work I'm doing here. Its a process and i WILL continue to remind myself that I won't loose the 50 pounds that i want to by next week.
That seems the most important aspect that I want to push through, and remember is that in comparison with two years ago when i weighed over 200 pounds and was so depressed and lost, I have come such a long long ways. New habits don't form overnight and if anything these past three days have shown me the importance of planning, of preparation, and most of all of understanding. Understanding that not only does my body need nourishment but my mind and spirit. Understanding that I can fill those holes and that need for confort with other things than food is something i wholey believe but am still working on - and that too is ok.
So, mantra for this week is baby steps. One foot in front of another - meal prep is done, gym schedule is planned, and so are the "me moments."
Here's to progress, understanding, and personal growth !
Sydney