I just signed up for another DietBet. When I got my new phone I did install the application on it, remembering that it existed, but I didn't know exactly when I'd try again as I'm not always motivated and am prone to bouncing back and forth between being on an appropriate diet and wanton overeating. This is a problem for me, and not just because of the weight itself... I don't like how fat I am, but I don't think I'm unattractive by any means. There are a lot of good reasons for me to diet that are generally socially acceptable by my community's terms (I'll talk about that later). I have food intolerances... I know what they are, but it's hard for me to just not eat those things. They make me miserable and being miserable makes me eat more. I also have high blood pressure among other problems, including a history of diabetes.
What kicked me to try it this time was going on a romantic getaway with my partner at a place that happened to have mirrored walls practically everywhere. Seeing my doughy naked body everywhere and realizing how bad it's gotten has at least temporarily gotten me into gear. My partner doesn't care, she likes fatter guys, but I need to pay attention to me, and she's basically said it's fine as long as I don't become rail thin (which isn't gonna happen).
Some obstacles I'm experiencing include my roommates... they're great people, but they really aren't conducive to me eating well. One of them eats at restaurants practically every meal of every day (unless I cook for him, which only happens like once a month). They also inadvertently hit some of my triggers, one of which ironically includes pointing out if I'm eating poorly (the best way to handle and support me is usually to just ignore that I'm eating different than you and don't ask me to go out to eat with you).
To make matters worse, a lot of my communities and hobbies overlap with the fat acceptance movement. I don't actually have a problem with this movement--to each their own--but being shamed for dieting really puts me on edge and is terrible for my health.
I'm really struggling and it's frustrating because I've gone through some long stints of doing a good paleo diet, but if I fall off the wagon I really fall.
I don't have much else to write right now, I just wanted to write a quick intro as I hope to blog regularly here to help me through this.