So the other day, a potential date blew me off because of my size. He did it politely and I of course know in my head, that the right guy will love me for me and yadayadayada, but my heart still was hurt, that you can be 44 and still SO dictated by your size. I am a beautiful hourglass formed size 18 now, and except for my stomack definately being too big and round, I kinda don't think, that this is SO bad! The date was not even slim himself...
I have been hardcore HEALTHY now since September 24. Every day planning and prioritizing, sleeping A LOT and walking a lot as well. I am really doing GOOD - except for my weight that is SOOOO stubborn! I lost a lot of water in the beginning but the last couple of weeks, it just fluctuates up and down.
So now I am going to beat stubborn with stubborn!
I have signed up for my third 6-month transformer and I am GOING TO FIGHT THIS! I have no idea how I am going to beat the next weigh-ins in mid november, but I truly hope my stubbornness will WIN this, and the large amount of money I have by now invested in this will motivate me!
I truly hoped on this site I could find some "weight-loss buddies" for support and fun, but it does seem to be working? It feels like many in here are just 'doing their own thing', fighting their own fight. I know in my heart, that we are stronger when we help each other - but it seems hard to build that kind of community here? What a shame! The journey can seem a little lonely - and I don't have any local piers as support-system.