My name is Jessica, I am 24 and I am married. I am in the military, the Ar Force to be exact, I am stationed at Wright Patterson AFB, OH. Prior to being stationed at WPAFB, I was in Las Vegas, stationed at Nellis AFB. Life seemed fairly easy and happy. BUT prior to joining the military I lived in Lorain, OH.
The start to my fitness journey began in 2012, I was at the highest weight I had ever been at in my life up to that point. My dad became very ill, he was diagnosed with cancer, and his survival chance was at 5%.. low right? So I spent months isolating myself from my friends, my schedule was simple, take my dad to treatments for 3 hours, come home take a nap, run 4 miles, do insanity, go to work, spend 2 hours at the gym, sleep and repeat. I lost almost 100 pounds and became really skinny but still had self esteem issues. I went from 220, to 135. I was proud of myself, but others would say I looked "too skinny" and I looked too sickly. But working out was my escape from the world and how I coped from my dad being sick.
January 2013, I joined the military and left for basic training and tech school, where after I lived in Las Vegas. I was living life, having fun, making great friends, my dad became cancer free at the end of 2013, so I was a little less stressed. Forward to 2014, I found a friend who loved running as much as I did and we soon began training for a half marathon. My dad began feeling ill again and we had no idea why, so now i'm 2,000 plus miles away from home, and stressed and scared that something would happen to my father. So i started running more, because what else can I do being so far away? I would run 10 miles 2 times a week, no less than 4 miles 2 times a week and I would sit on the stair master for an hour every friday. I would update my father with my accomplishments, everytime I would knock a minute off my run. But the stress became too much for me and I began having fainting spells. I would be perectly fine one minute and then the next minute I would be on the floor with everyone around me, asking if I was ok. The hospital became worried and I had to wear a heart monitor for a month and a half to see if my heart was okay. Though it checked out fine, they assumed I was too stressed for my own health but they didn't have an answer as to what was wrong with me.
December of 2014, I came home, got engaged to my boyfriend and took my dad to yet another biopsy of a mass they found in his liver. 2 days after Christmas, my dad got the call from his doctor who then told us his cancer was back and this time in his liver, and his life expectancy was only a year to live. I became very scared, I was only 21, I couldnt't live without my dad. January of 2015 I got married and went back to vegas where I asked my commander to get me to Ohio.. so we put in a package for the military to send me to Ohio to be closer to my dad. April of 2015, I'm settled in to Ohio. June of 2015 my dad passed away. This did some much to my mental health. I lost weight cause I wouldn't eat. I held a good weight of 165, healthy and happy with my body until my dad passed. I loset weight and became sick myself. I didn't want to live, everyday my husband had to fight to get me to eat and not take sleeping pills to numb the pain.
About 6 months passed, I was back at my normal weight of 165-170. Still depressed,but i learned how to eat normal again and workout my frustrations again.
Now April of 2017, my husband is diagnosed with Hodgkins lymphoma. These last 7 months have been hell. I've gained 60 pounds, I am miserable. My husband has spent more time in the hospital than he has at home. He needs a bone marrow transplant.
I joined DietBet because I want to be a healthier me, and when I fall off the wagon, I want the encoragement I've found in here to lift me up.
My husband will be hospitalized for 2 months for his tranplant and have to stay in a hotel for 2 months after. I have a job and 3 animals to also take care of. So I hope I can be a better me, and balance my health, and my life. To transition depression and binge eating into fitness and improving me.