Two months ago the only mental connecting I did was picturing that bag of Oreos in the pantry and how good they were going to taste when I got the energy to get up and get them. I was at the height of my lazy state. I didn’t even want to go get the junk food cause it was too much effort to get outta bed. So naturally, I would have my husband fetch it....or one of the kids. Heck I would probably pay someone to train the dogs to. I knew I was needing to break the cycle. And I wish I could pinpoint when I finally said enough is enough but I just woke up last month and just went cold turkey into it. Joined the gym, started buying healthy and prepping, even signed up for yoga classes on Thursdays. It is outside around sunset and it just sounded...inviting. The first 3 weeks were almost laughable. No strength, no balance and clenching so tight to avoid being the person who ripped one in “Happy Baby” pose.
Here I am 4 weeks later and actually impressing myself with my dedication. I mastered my first successful Boat pose and Half moon. I even was able to slowly lower my legs down at a snails pace instead of them giving out an 1/8 of the way down. I was feeling good! Then we ended it like we normally do with a 5 minute quiet meditation. I finally cleared my mind and was able to feel that body to earth connection the instructor raves about. I was so deep into it I guess my jaw had slacked a little. Breathing in...breathing out...it was amazing! And on one deep inward breath a small hitchhiking bug entered my airway and I gagged. All sense of calm and connected I felt was gone and All I could focus on was I just swallowed a bug! The person next to me never opened their eyes but whispered loudly to me....”extra protein”
Definitely closer to nature than I intended to get.....