You know that feeling when you trip fall:

  1. OMG!! UUGH!!!
  2. Ouch!
  3. Did anybody notice!!
  4. I'm gonna play this off like it never happened :/
  5. Ackk!! I limping everyone can totally tell :(

      Well that's pretty much an everyday feeling for me these days.  I had this great fabulous 75lbs weight loss, I bought my first house, my daughter got in a great school and I had a good guy in my life.  I was looking so sexy and attracting tremendous attention, I got rid of all my big girl clothing and swore to never revist them again. I promised myself that I if my clothes got too tight it would be my signal to get on my workout grind.                        

      I got my new home in what felt like a sleepy little suburban neighborhood filled with mostly retirees.  Turns out the problem with retirees is their good for nothing drug addicted offspring that use their homes as revolving doors.

     On March 13, 2014 (3 day before my pre-paid cruise & 5 days before my b'day) I recieved a phone call at 6am in the morning from my neighbor's crack addicted son propositoning me for sexual favors.  I refused and hung up, I was called then cursed out by the psycho who was angrily shouting "just admit it you don't like me because I am a drug addict"..........Umm Yeah! Yikes this guy is scary!!

     I went on to work and later came home to find my house trashed and my tv's, jewelry, and laptops stolen. The police did nothing, the insurance company sent me another creeper to my house to interview me and take pictures.  The creep kept walking behind me and taking pictures of me and making inappropriate comments.

     Following that incident my mom came to the house to puppy sit for me until my security system was installed.  She took a nasty spill on my porch and 2 surgeries later she is much better.  My nemisis at work is on the attack and my job was in danger. Now I want to move and sell my house and the market is pretty flooded in my area so I'm stuck for now.

    My guy is no longer, my guy and we don't even speak. My daughter was doing terribly at school and I bought an attack dog that tired to attack me.  On top of every thing I started packing on the pounds in the last 6 months.

At first I was in denial and then:

  1. I started feel uncomfortable in my clothing - OMG!!!
  2. Old pains returned in my back, neck and sciatica - Ouch!
  3. I was still fitting my clothes but I was wondering if other could tell???
  4. I was hiding my lunch cause I was wondering if I was being judged - :/
  5. I started wearing outfits to camoflauge the bulges but I knew no matter what I was fat and everyone could tell :(

I have to deal with tons of stress and diet sabators in my life.  I am a strong person and even though I haven't turned some major corner of luck yet its really time for me to pick myself up and make lemonade out of all these lemons.

Wish me luck cause I need it!!!