Let's Talk about Self Sabotage

Posted on October 11, 2014

I don't know about the rest of you guys... but when I weighed myself yesterday and discovered that my mini goal was within reach, like 5 pounds...what did I go and do..I went and blew it...sigh.

Here is my reason why I think this happened.... I got scared, yep SCARED!

This happned to me right before I started this dietbet too... I got within the 5 pound celebratory worthy mark and what did I do... I went out and had a day of blowing it out of the water... I had pasta, and popcorn...even Dessert...yup PUMPKIN CHEESECAKE...and while it was yummy... yes it was... I felt like crap later.... I was doing good... I was eating better, working out more...and I guess we all should have a cheat day or meal...just to fool the stomach to avoid plateauing...but... I think I took it to the extreme that day...I gained 2 lbs that day...and then after seeing that the next day...fell into a depression that led to another few pounds of gain....

I did get back on track though..thanks to my wonderful sister, always believing in me and going through similar situations...

Well It happened to me again today... but not as bad... it more more a cheat meal than day..and I compensated by having a light snack instead of dinner...since this meal was around 4:30 pm ..and followed a rigorous workout of rock climbing...not that I am making excuses... but I was hungry...The food...it was ok....or good...but I felt horrible afterwards because I was so close to a goal and again....I blow it..

Why am I doing this to myself.... not once but twice and I'm sure there is a heck of a lot of other times too that I just supress.

I am not going to weigh myself tomorrow...It will just put me in a bad place...but I plan on a good workout and a day of smart eating...and hopefully Monday... when I weigh myself in the morning...I will see the number I saw on the scale yesterday.

After I weigh myself on Monday is where it gets tricky...as to the number on the scale will define my next step..to step it up or eat even better. I need to stop sabotaging myself....

I know I am worth it.

I know I deserve to lose it.

I need to lose it... I don't want the weight or this so called security blanket from unwanted attention anymore (long story).

So with that.... Come Monday...when I am hoping the number on the scale is a good one... I am going to stay on my food plan...and eat better and not run to whatever I may be craving subconsiously to sabotage myself. I am going to stay on track...

I repeat... I will stay on track-this time!!!

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Barbara L.

10/12/2014 6:26AM

I joined WW one time and told them to never tell me my weight.....good or bad, gain or lose. Because even if I lose 1/2 and thought it should be more..i would get mad and eat bad! See if you can get a friend to weigh you...only let your clothes be your guide.Not the scale! Sabatoge....why don't you deserve to be healthy? Look at it like that and not about winning on the numbers. You know you can reach this goal? What is the next goal after that? Start looking past this and find something else to focus your energy on....you will surpass this goal! Strength and POWER to you!

Leila

10/12/2014 5:10AM

Forgive yourself. Monday will engerize you to conquer your next goal!

Nicole

10/12/2014 12:38AM

This is amazing!!

YES, I agree....no weighing in on Sunday. Let's do our walk/jog... stairs.... football... movie (lets bring pop and maybe a low carb snack).
A light dinner... and we weigh in on Monday. We are STRONG! WHY? Because every time we fall, we get back up, stronger! :)

You inspire me!

WE. CAN. DO. THIS.

MacRitchie

10/11/2014 8:14PM

Great post! When I get closer to my goal I can get lazy and unfocused. But I'm realising that that's actually the time to step it up. Maintenance is actually the most challenging part of all this..