After running today, I decided to treat myself to some Ruffles Cheddar chips - my favourite and something I've been holding back from for a few months. I mean, my dietbet that I was stressing about is over and I was 0.5lbs under the goal weight, so why not? So I stepped into one of the supermarkets I pass by on my way back and went in, gleefully.
I went in and instantly spied the chocolate section. "CHOCOLATE!", my heart sang, as I went over and snagged a 5-in-1 pack of mars bars, some Almond Roca and a Hershey's Cookies n' Cream bar - my absolute favourite. With all of these in my hand, I started to walk away - but then had a guilt trip. I knew that I was 'cheating', in a way - and I wasn't even cheating with what I came in for, which were my Ruffles Cheddar crisps. I knew I was putting junk in my body, so why not get the junk that I came in for? I looked down at my handful of chocolate and felt kind of queasy, like you would if you just finished off four glasses of milk. I put the chocolates back and I didn't even feel like I was missing out on anything.
I went to the chips section with a one track mind. Lays... Calbee... Pringle... wait, was that the end of the aisle? Where was Ruffles? Where were my Ruffles crisps?! I was kind of in a shock, surprised that the universe would conspire against me so cruelly. Alas, the crisps that I had been craving for were not there.
Dismayed, I sought out for other junk I could potentially have (which didn't mean I didn't backtrack to the chips aisle to double and triple check that there were no Ruffles crisps). I stopped by some Nutella, got the big jar, then went back to get the small jar, then went and put it back because it still wasn't what I came into the store for. I went to the refrigerated section and saw some strawberry milk, something that I also craved during my diet. However, they only had the big bottle, and I wanted the small.
Nothing was going right. I left the supermarket empty handed. Junk food, you escape me for another day. That said though, I'm kind of glad I didn't get it in the end. It would've probably made me feel sluggish, completely ruining my running high. Who knew (well, probably everyone) - going off junk food for a while really makes you stop craving for it. I'm only starting to experience it now.