Up & down

Thank you! I appreciate that!

I wanted to let you know that I've added you as a friend. Thank you for being so supportive!

The box on the right says I have no winnings, and that is a lie! I won dietbet 4, and I won round one in this bet!
I am trying to see myself as a winner, but it is difficult when I cannot figure out how to make an entry in my own blog, and I just came out of my bipolar downslide, where my brain does not take instructions whatsoever. I cannot write anything intelligent befor I figure this out, I am totally hung up!

When I manage to ride out the depression, I also feel much better a lot sooner, so all in all I am quite happy even without loosing weight. Now I just have to jump in where I was, and not having to catch up. I am still far from my goal weight for this round, but feeling optimistic again!

Trying again: I'm staying at my mother's with my daughter, and the pressure is heavy to eat more, taste this and that, and I have to use a LOT of energy to stay focused. But at least I have plenty to do in the house and the garden, so I work up a sweat several times during the day.

Being bipolar also has challenges. Sometimes I do not want to eat at all, but usually in my depressions, I crave sugar and fat! Lots of it! And I don't want to move at all, just stay in bed and shut the world out.
But I am not a spring chicken anymore, and I have had a few battels with myself to find some coping strategies, so I always get out of bed, and get dressed, no matter what. On my worst days that is all I can manage, but I push myself hard to shower, brush my teeth and open my front door; that way the nexst step is easier,- get out of the house!
This time the depression was not too bad. I have been out of the house every day, and stayed healthy. I have even worked out on several occations!

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