Emotional Rescue!

Starting over again.

Wow!!!! I mean, how many times can a person gain & lose the same 10 pounds? This time will be different. Will it? I know it is not a lack of desire that prevents my weight loss success to stick. I believe it is a total lack of control over my emotions.

Now you might think I am a nut case or neurotic, I could be both. Actually, I am a pretty stable, semi- normal, probably average, 52 year old woman with typical issues.

1. Low self esteem, been there- done it with the "Super Woman" thing, (totally over that).

2. Post menapausal energy loss,(used to over exercise as a matter of principal, over that too!!).

3. Post menapuase weight gain, (now attaching to my stomach, EEEK!!).

4. Love eating clean but refuse to give up my red wine & chocolate. (red wine is good for my heart & dark chocolate has soooooo many anti- oxidants! ha, ha, ha.).

5. STILL LETTING MY MOM PISS ME OFF!!!! ???? (am I 52 or 25??!!).

6. Refusing to acknowledge that I didn't just back off exercise, I am completely avoiding it! Truth be told, my TV provider told me I actually ordered to many movies this month!! I was shocked & said "but I paid my bill!!" They replied, doesn't matter, we have limits to how many movies anyone can order. As if!!?? So my reply was; "OK, fine, I guess that means I should go exercise, so I will go walk my dogs, thank you for the motivation." End of call. Am I walking? NO~ here I sit typing my thoughts because that allows me to AVOID exercising!!! I may have a problem there.

So, my first blog post is a crazy rant about my issues. What does that really mean? I am not really in touch with my emotions. I need to remember how it feels to break a sweat & let those pent up emotions disapate. I read through my list & clearly see I am really just being a baby. Emotional immaturity. OK I can live with that. Perhaps for the day I will go tackle some walking & see if I can break a sweat. Maybe I will even jump on my rowing machine which has not been used in months. (Yikes!). And, yes I promise to walk my dogs too. :))

And, try to limit my red wine tonight to 1 glass.... well maybe 2. :))

With happiness, humility & humour....

Mara:)

Joanna J.

03/06/2015 7:18PM

Mara, I love your blog post! I can relate to 10lbs boomerang that keeps coming back... I am determined now, and your words are reasurring that I am not a total failure but a normal person. And that we can achieve our goals. We already succeded! At least once,right? :)

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Mooskie

Good morning Joanna! I totally agree with you!! In your thought I like sharing a vision of a success we already have achieved!! I have read so many others who also, like us, admit the ridiculous defeat & losing battle with these same ten pounds, it is so reassuring that we are not weak, alone or even bad. It seems rather we are pretty average!! Ha, ha, ha. What a relief. I love knowing that there are so many others walking around on this crazy planet combatting all the same emotions we feel. It makes me have more drive in realizing it isn't easy for anyone & remembering anything worth doing is worth the sacrifice it takes to get there. I am glad we are now friends Joanna. Thank you! Hugs & happiness!~ :)))