I know it isn't a big deal to gain a 1/2 a pound this week. There are many reasons why this happens. But I can say I know why I gained this weight and I should be happy that it was only a 1/2 pound.
I have been eating at night and not logging the calories. I was tricking myself to think I have the calories to spare so what harm it will be that I eat this or that. Well the harm was a 1/2 pound gain. I know I am starting to self sabotage myself because I am feeling good, feeling happy, and feeling confident. These are feelings I am not use to having in a long time.
Some of us who have been heavy for so long gets used to feeling so bad about ourselves that when we start to feel good about ourselves we don't know how to deal with it so we go back to our old ways. I like feeling good and I don't want to go back to my old ways. I am happy I had this 1/2 pound gain this week. It's my way of telling myself stay the course, like who you are and what you are doing. Love yourself enough to not go back. Be honest and couragous with yourself to change.
I had to confuse what I have been doing to myself this week, so that I can move on and be accountable to myself and fellow players. I feel it is important that I not only share the good things I am doing but also the things I am doing wrong. It is important to me to be honest with myself and you all.
So if you are like me don't let yourself go back, keep going forward, it is okay to start to feel good about yourself. We are allowed.