well. here i am back where I have been before. just a few short years ago I was at my curernt eight of 282. In November of 2011 I told myself you need to do something. So I started slowly by the summer of 2012 I had lost 30 or so lbs. i kept it up and by the start of 2013 i was down just on the cusp of the 220's. I haven't been in that range since my very early 20's. Then i got pregnant had my second child and at the time of her birth i was in the 260's. here I am my daughter is way past 1 it is now 2015 and guess what..i am 2lbs away from being back to where i was when i started to change in November of 2011. it is so damn dissapointing. All that hard work and here i am starting over for like the third time now at this high of a weight. Will I ever be out of the 200's? I have't been under the 200's since my teenage years. I know i should not let these numbers define me but they do. If I am being honest they do. le sigh
This diet bet I don't know how I am going to do. I find myself with less energy and motivation already and we are only on day 2. I hope i can pick it up and do well. I would at least like to meet the minimum 4% loss. I hope in the next few days I don't feel as hopeless.
Right now I submitted my offical weigh in. Then I took a hard look at those pictures and gosh. Again I just look at it and think wow is this what i really look like to everyone out there? and I think my poor husband..he really does love me. Agh i need to go to bed I am in not the most chipper of moods.
I am thankful for two freinds that posted and talked to me about this diet bet. because 2 days ago at this hour i was sitting at this computer eating a huge bowl of queso and chips. =(