I have had a LOT of personal stuff going on in the past couple weeks. Last week, I ate a lot of food, not even caring. Basically I wrote off the $100 that I put into this bet. I was so nervous and scared about the things going on.
I expected this week to be really tough on me, because I would be travelling for my first week back to work since I moved into my house nearly two months ago. On top of that, I have been managing some relationship struggles with people I care about. I am trying to stay level headed and mature, but it is difficult to do.
Through all of these stressors, I found release and relaxation in my exercises and my marriage. My husband is a great source of comfort for me, and I am thankful that I am able to bring anything and everything to him, knowing that he will remain judgement-free and do his best to provide objective feedback for me to process.
But sometimes, I need to be able to be by myself to process information and feelings. I've found that if I just sit by myself, I will begin to obsess and think in unproductive manners. Exercise is what helps me work through my problems. The energy that I would spend obsessing and freaking out gets translated into kinetic energy, and by the time I finish my workouts, I can approach my thoughts from a level-headed point of view.
I am proud of my eating this past week while I have been travelling. I logged everything in MFP. Generally speaking I don't worry about logging every morsel, but when I'm on the road it helps me keep focused. I'm going to try to continue to log when I get back home tonight.
I woke up at 2:30 AM Pacific time to do my Insanity workout today! That's another thing I'm proud of! When I get home tonight at 6 PM Eastern, I won't have to worry about getting it in before completely passing out in my own bed.
I think I still have time to redeem my bad eating from a couple weeks ago. I haven't been able to weigh myself all week, which I think actually helped me stay on track.
Sorry for the rambling. I'm writing this immediately post-exercise (Max Cardio Conditioning & Cardio Abs - are you kidding me, Shaun T?!), and now I've got to get in the shower, get ready, check out of the hotel, get gas in the car and return it, and get through LAX security so I can get home. (BTW I'm not fond of this large city thing. LA is beautiful, but I miss my five-gate airport and little city.)
What have been some of your challenges in the last two weeks?
Best,
Adriane