I have struggled with my weight since I was a kid. I was the chubby kid up until 10th grade. I had lost a ton of weight in high school but I wouldn't necessarily consider it a healthy way because I became scared of certain foods and felt deprived but I wanted to be thin. Even after losing all that weight, I found myself developing a bad self image. I didn't really see the change that I obviously made and still saw the chubby kid.
Flashforward a few years into college and I had entered into a depression because of other personal events in my life. At first I barely ate because of my depression but then I started to just not care what I ate. All the fast foods I avoided for years became a normal part of my life and salads went out the window. Not to mention I started living the college party lifestyle to distract me from my depression. I ended up gaining all my weight back and some because of my unhealthy lifestyle and decided I needed to make changes.
These past few years since college have been rocky but an improvement. I still struggle with depression but I know I'm in a better place than where I was back then. When I fall off the wagon, I do my best to pick myself back up. I'm working to take back my life one step at a time. I no longer hate my body image even if I'm not skinny. My goal is now to be a healthier me. To stop feeding myself with junk that was killing my body and to instead feed it with the food it needs to survive. While the number on the scale does not matter so much to me, I know that I do need to get myself to a healthy weight which is why I decided to join DietBet to help give me some extra accountability to not give up.