When my sister sent me the link to the DietBet video this morning, I was not prepared. I have so much going on in my life and this was not on my radar. However, every single day I'm frustrated and disappointed with my choices and how I look and how I feel. Especially after doing a clean eating run this summer and realizing how good I could really feel. The stress in my life has caused me to give up. To hit the drive thrus. To grab a mixed coffee drink nearly every morning to make up for the sleep I'm not getting. To get a snack before my 3rd episode of whatever show I'm into at 11:30 at night. To drink virtually no water, ever. It should go without saying that I feel, like, crap. I'm tired, dehydrated, achy, sore, crabby, can't sleep, can't wake up. Add my bad habits on top of going through a very dark period of divorce with two young children whose father no longer cared enough about them to go to counseling as I begged for, but instead chose to start a new secret life with the married woman down the street, whose daughter is in the same grade at our kids' school, where I happen to work. Yeah. If I don't start taking care of myself, NOW, the tiredness, aches and pains, and sadness, are going to swallow me up. So Jillian's little 45 second video today started me on a path of refocusing. I happened to buy a new waterbottle yesterday- one babystep towards getting back on track. It's exciting how quickly you can go from watching a blurb about a weight loss challenge, to brainstorming what your meal plans will look like, to looking up motivational quotes about being healthy and exercising, and before you know it, you're excited and ready to tackle the world! Granted, I haven't left my couch yet, but mental motivation is a much bigger battle than physical. I already know what I will wear for my weigh-in pics, have calculated how much weight 4% is for me, and am going to make a schedule to add some exercise to my life during this process. Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to go fill up my waterbottle.