I am 44 years old, and have been trying to diet or change my body or have been thinking about doing so ever since I was 12.
I have spent thousands upon thousands of dollars on books, programs, magazines, seminars, and retreats in an attempt to lose weight and be thin. And probably thousands of hours too. An unfortunate portion of my brain and attention has been consumed with this.
Although I haven't been 'successful' at losing and then maintaining, it's not been in vain. Each time, each year, I learn a little bit more about myself, and what works for me. Or doesn't.
I finally decided a couple months ago that I am my own guru. I pick and choose from other's experiences, and then make my own decisions based on what feels good to me and what works, according to my own experience in my own body and mind.
It feels good. I am optimistic. I am just living a healthy lifestyle now. For me, that means mostly vegetarian but sometimes fish or other animal-based protein. And it definitely means an Rx of chocolate or other treats once in awhile.
I am sneaking in exercise, and not waiting for the perfect moment. No hard core gym workouts. Just walking home from work during a beautiful summer evening.
How long will it take to get down to a health weight? I don't know, but I am sure that if I eat healthfully and moderately it will take exactly the right amount of time.
I used to make elaborate plans and vision boards and daydreams about how I would lose the weight and what my life will look like when I get there.
Now I am just living, and enjoying the journey.