April 27 I started my first db w/Heidi & Chris. All because I'd gone to ride in my first horse show of the season. I was so embarrassed. I was overweight and out of shape. I couldn't fit in my show clothes, I didn't have enough stamina, and and my left ankle couldn't hold out in the classes. Ugh. So I realized I had to finally do something about it. I joined the bet, read the books, and lbegan a new lifestyle.
A month later I'd lost over 10 lbs, but with that loss came the discovery of a large mass on my ovary. Endometrial cancer. 6 weeks ago I had a hysterectomy, and now I've had 2 days of chemo (1 day a week that will go for 12 weeks). How do I feel? Depends on the day. Thankful that because of choosing that first db I discovered the cancer early. Angry that it's here at all. Disappointed that I wouldn't be riding after all that work. Afraid that all my fitness/health gains would be lost. The list goes on.
still, I'm committed to continuing this new lifestyle--especially w the cancer. I need to eat right for my body and my life.
This last week has been tough. My daughter was in town, family parties, and a show I was going to go to lend support. I didn't eat well all week and lost my first bet. (I've won all my others). Still, it was a victory after all. Instead of watching on the sidelines, my trainer allowed me to ride her horse and show (even though I hadn't been allowed to ride by my Dr. For the previous six weeks). I rode better than I had in a year! I got back on that horse and proved to myself that my riding days weren't over.
Today I get back on that other horse--choosing the right foods, exercise, and continuing my plan to take care of myself. I love this horse too, and I won't let my illness stop me or give me an excuse to give up. This is not a completed story by any stretch, but it is my first success story!