Keep on keepin' on, kiddo! I've been really down before, I've been pushing 200lbs, and it took me 14 years to finish college, but I did it. I know what all that one you at once can feel like. But I can tell you from the other side, nothing worth having come easy and the pride you get from finally making is amazing. Hugs. You can do it. Think in small steps, not having to do the whole race at once