"I will never allow myself to be this size again." Those are the words I spoke after I had my daughter nine and a half years ago. I was 265 lbs and the largest I had ever been. I did not understand that I was an emotional eater. I was not aware that food was my comfort. Alcohol was my comfort before food was. I got saved, got married and got pregnant two years later. I didn't have a desire for the old things. However, I didn't realize I had replaced one thing for another.
I spent the time after my daughter was born working out, changing my eating habits and losing weight. It took me a while but I did it. I got down to 200 and I felt great. I was divorced, being delivered from things that had me bound and discovering the woman God called me to be. I maintained my weight and anytime I saw a shift, I would adjust my habits accordingly.
It is easy to begin to carry weight again and not realize it until your clothes become too tight and it hits you in the face. Now, I stand at 261 lbs; only four pounds from the weight I said I'd never be again. It is time for a different approach. I will not allow myself to get lazy, unfocused, and complacent again when it comes to my health. I cannot affor to. I have dreams to fulfill and I cannot carry extra weight on this journey. Here's to getting back on track and adjusting my lifestyle so I can walk in my destiny and impact lives.