It feels good to be able to look forward to working out in the morning. In fact, it feels awesome to be obsessed with Zumba instead of Reese's mini cups & Cadbury mini eggs. It has been a long time since I've binged and many, many, many years since I purged.
When it was bad, I would buy bags of the minis and just consume them. After, I would crave something salty and would hit the drive thru for fries or get a bag of chips and dip and eat the entire thing.
ICK :-(
I was ashamed, so of course I would hide the gobs and gobs of food I had eaten. The wrappers a tell tale sign of my inability to control myself.
It took some time, but I stopped that behavior. I went to a store recently and bought a bathing suit without trying it on. I looked at the size, saw it was a Speedo and thought, "this could work." It was $20 so I thought, even if it doesn't fit, I'll donate it.
As any woman knows, the whole act of trying on a bathing suit can be horrible. I noticed in my hurry, I had actually bought 2 sizes down from my usual.
It FIT! I wasn't just happy that I hadn't wasted $20, but I had a nice fitting suit, 2 sizes SMALLER. There was a bit of a happy dance as I ran around the house in my new bathing suit:-)
It doesn't really matter where you've been. We've all struggled. It's the journey to get to the true you that counts.