Falling off the Wagon!

This is written so good and you have written a lot of how I feel! I have just won my 10th kickstart. I am currently in 2 others and thinking about adding a 3rd to get me though Christmas. I was worried that the 4% is getting harder to reach, so I was still considering the 3rd this time. I joined two transformers, because 10% in 6 months will get me close to my goal and sounds easier right now. I have lost 40 lbs and still have about 30 to go, so maybe I need to kick it in and make that 4% easier to reach. I think I was getting too comfortable and need to change up my exercise. But, . I love my blue dots and I want to be a 100% blue dotter, but if I happen to not make one, I will not let it make me fall off the wagon either. Thank you for your encouragement!