Lose weight the fun way.

Posted on January 21, 2016

Yesterday, Jan 20th was a very hard day. During the day all I could think was- "How many carbs does this have?", "Did I drink the water?", "I am such a loser", ....

Every time that I went to the bathroom (which was many times since I drank a ton of water) I would look myself in the mirror and just think BAD THINGS about me. I am usually a very positive person but when I am down........MAN! I AM BEYOND DOWN!!

On my way home (45min drive) I battle with my mind " Don't go to the gym! It is super cold outside and you worked out so much this week already! You had 4g of carbs! You are FINE!"...."No! You are a fat Whale! You should drive faster and get your bumpy ass to the gym NOW". My poor husband calls and ask "what's for dinner?" I GO BALLISTIC ON HIM!! Absolutely crazy! yelling....crying...calling him names...Just because deep in my mind I knew I was failling taking care of myself and didn't want fail taking care of him.......... Why our mind does that ? Why I feel like I am crazy for having this fatty person inside my head that just want me to be fat!!? I'll kill you!!!

All I know is that today is a new day, and I will make this day as perfect as I CAN.

Phew....so glad I found this...so I can vent problems to myself.

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Paola

01/22/2016 5:08AM

So sweet!! Thank you!

Biking Syl

01/21/2016 4:56PM

It might help you to log your food and workouts on MyFitnesspal or similar. So you can always prove to yourself that you DID do your homework. And from now on, there is one rule that cannot be broken: NO NEGATIVE SELF TALK. Pick any positive mantra that works for you. Example: I love myself and I can do this. So what, if you don't feel it. Just say it out loud and inside your head, every time you are tempted to go negative. Your mind will respond to it, promise. Just be stubborn and stick to the mantra, no questions asked. Give yourself a couple of weeks and say it every time. It will make a big difference and remove a lot of stress. It also sounds like you already have a lot going on, so make sure you treat yourself too: to your favorite workout or whatever healthy, relaxing me-time you feel like.

Dominque S.

01/21/2016 7:07AM

You are fearfully and wonderfully made! Although we have damaged our bodies with our previous lifestyles we are able to change and with change comes a new day every 24hours I'm learning to look at every flaw and say you are beautiful bc if I don't love me how can someone else ? Ps Paola you look amazing you waist is amazing, your gorgeous and personality seems down to earth! Like and Love yourself - I've had days and probably will have days like your yesterday but let's always come back to reality remembering how far we have come not how far we have to go .So to all of my cellulite, my stretch marks , my rolls and imperfections on1/21/16 I say I accept you and all your hidden beauty as you have made me into this beautifully unique person I am today Let today be as amazing as we are ! We got this 1 week down 3 to do we got this Paola And be nice to hubby lol

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Paola

hahaha YOU MADE ME CRY!!! <3 thank you!! ps- Will be nice to hubby!