So I rocked my first two weeks of my new healthy lifestyle. I am following Weight Watchers and I've been doinig pretty good tracking and making healthy choices then today I woke up depressed. I have not gained anything. I did not go crazy and eat my way through anything. I just woke up feeling blah.

My baby girl and her girlfriend and getting married in 1 month and I have wasted the last year being lazy and not eating well. Instead of focusing on being healthy I continued down my "meh" way and gained weight. I know that I will not be where I would like to be at their wedding and I was OK with that. I finally got my act together and I am now on a healthy path, one that I will stay on, so I was OK with where I am until this morning. This morning I realized that I have to shop for a dress - ahhhh!

I am working my way though the doubts and depression. And I will be doing it quickly LOL! I have no time for doubts. I know that my daughter will be happy no matter what I wear and no matter how much I weigh. I am not going to be part of a fashion show, I am going to celebrate their love and the start of their life as a married couple.

I will find a dress that fits me well and I will rock it! I only have 31 pounds until I reach my Weight Watchers goal. In the big picture that really isn't a lot, for someone who is 5'4" it is way more than I wish I had to lose but it is what it is. I am consistently eating healthy foods, I am consistently making good choices and I will get to a healthy weight, a heathly BMI and a healthy me.

I have wallowed enough for today. I will pack the doubts up along with depression and I will move on. This week I shop for a dress!

Photos to come soon :)