Ugh. My motivation and energy are at an all-time low. I'm still forcing myself to eat healthy, but I'm definitely not enjoying it at all...especially when everyone around me gets to eat whatever they want. My depression is hitting hard because of all the stress and negative things going on a home. I hope I don't give up. I've got a plateau with my weight....not all too surprising - I seem to lose weight much slower than most.
I'm so tired all the time. Yeah, a lot of that stems from having an almost 3 year old and a baby. But I feel like it just never goes away. For once I'd just like to have some energy to get things done. I feel like I could just sleep all the time. Even writing this I just don't have the energy. I'm constantly worried about what I'm eating, how much, when, is it enough, is it not enough.....ugh. Maybe I shouldn't have done this bet...maybe its only adding more stress to my mountain.
I'm supposed to go to Picasso and Wine today to paint something I've been waiting forever to paint - along with my sister-in-law and my husband's friend's wife. I don't even feel at all like doing it today. It should be a fun time out and away from the kids but I just feel so crappy I don't want to go. I'm hoping once I'm there and it gets going I'll feel better. I hope so.
Hope you all are having a good weekend so far.