I just wanted to let eveyone know alitte bit about me. I am a mother of a 20 year old son and a 18 year old daughter. My daughter has just started his first year at College which is a 4 hour drive from our home. It has been a hard transition for me due to the fact we are really close. I think the thing we need that we were never given is a guide on how to let go and let our children find themselves. I want so much for my daughter to find some great friends in college and enjoy her new chapter in life.
I however have used this as an excuse to put everything I see into my mouth. This has been extremely bad since the beginning of August to now, the thing I began to grab each time I would stop at a store would be DING DONGS or SWISS CAKE ROLLS, along with this I started making myself homemade cherry COKES. This was so dumb and in the process I gained alot of weight in the months since May. I have vowed to make the right food choices and I do great until I get home or have a weekend. I always justify eating something I know I shouldn't. I have even told my husband now to take the food away from me, you should have seen the crazy look on his face. He must really think I've lost it. I really haven't I've GAINED it.
The hardest thing for me right now is going back to the gym, due to being in a commercial for them and guess what I feel stupid. I know they don't notice that I've gained the weight back but I do. I keep joking saying I've gained a baby while letting my baby leave for college and say I need to deliver this new one. I know we are so hard on ourselves, but WHY DO WE DO THIS? It's just food......
The other big obstacle this week is over a year ago I signed up for 2 10k's and did one earlier this year and the other one is this Saturday and I have no idea when I ran last. The result is me having to do 2 6 mile runs this week prior to Saturday and see if I can still finish this race within my last finish time. It took me 1 hour and 20minutes and I pray I can do it. I'm going to the gym to tan and then hit the pavement to finish the 6 miles jog I need to complete tonight......GO GO GO....
Heres to staying on TRACK tonight and getting my 6 mile run in and eating a good meal and staying away from food tonight. I want to go to the gym in the morning and get that out of the way so I can enjoy Tuesday night and maybe take my dogs for a nice walk tomorrow night....