Struggling through

Posted on September 20, 2014

As I sit here today, my mind of goes to my mom and her struggles throughout the years in dealing with weight, her fights with cancer and other illnesses throughout her 64 years. I know now she is finally at peace and no longer in pain; however it is hard to think that I can never just call her to talk. While we had our struggles, she and I were very close and shared alot with her.

She was always concerned with my health because of her struggles, so I am so glad that even though she did not get to see me at my healthiest, she did get to see me at my healthiest I have been in my 40 years and was so proud that I was stepping towards a better lifestyle and improving my overall health. I'm sort of using this blog to remind myself of how proud she was of me making these changes, which reinforces to me that I need to stay as much as I can on the right path, no matter what others are saying about taking a few weeks to just let loosing her settle in.

In all honesty, that actually really upsets me because I will say I feel more driven to do this, yes for myself, but also in her honor. And when individuals are telling me to "take my time to get back into everything", this situation has reminded me that...time is something that is a luxury and it is not always available as in my mom's case.

I'm pretty much just using this and DietBet to get myself back in control of my lifestyle change. For me now, it doesn't matter if I "win" or not, but it is more important that whatever the results I am continuing to move in the right direction.

My photo to the right is my favorite goofy picture of me and my mom that I wanted to share. I appreciate those of you who have read and hopefully it is okay that this blog has become a bit or my diary/sounding board. I LOVE YOU MOM and promise that I will continue my healthy lifestyle in your honor.

Pennie

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KnitterBeth

09/22/2014 6:10AM

Beautiful sentiment, beautifully written. No wonder your mom was proud of you. I can completely relate; I lost my mom to cancer in 2006. She also struggled with her weight most of her life, had late-onset diabetes, and various other medical issues. I wish she were still here so I could share my fitness and health successes with her. I think of her whenever I hit a major loss milestone. <3

I'm proud of you, too.

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Pennie Sherie

Thank you so much. Your mom is so proud of you too!

Sherry S.

09/21/2014 3:10PM

Sherie, I am so sorry for the loss of your Mom. I lost my Mom several years ago and I know how hard it is and how you wish you could talk to her! No one can tell you how to grieve or for how long, only you know that. I'm sure your Mom is so very proud of you and cheering you on from a far. You will continue to make her proud and do this for you and for her. God bless you and big hugs!

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Pennie Sherie

Thank you :) I actually did 6.5 miles last Sunday and talked to her the whole way :)

Adrienne Marie

09/20/2014 2:04PM

That is amazing! I love how you used her story to make your own. I too struggle just because I have hypoglycemia and a gluten allergy. I wrote a blog just now describing what I do to stay on track. It's hard but I do it because I know that it will ultimately make me happy and keep me healthier for a long time. :)

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Pennie Sherie

Thank you :) It is a struggle but you are right, I can see how I feel better, which is what keeps me going.

Cynthia F.

09/20/2014 1:53PM

Thank you for sharing this story.

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