Lose weight the fun way.

Posted on October 12, 2014

I have been attacked and beat up again. Same person as before! You would think I would learn from the situations and move beyond all this garbage.

Guess I am just a slow learner. :( Why do I allow this???

I have been mentally beating myself up for having a late night binge. Yep, the whole bag of Lindor truffles. Granted it was a small bag. Still high in calories.

I have been on a solid 8 week loss streak. Focused. Determined. Now, I am feeling defeated and struggling with getting re-focused. That small voice is whispering in my ear. "Oh, you have already blown it. Might as well get it out of your system. Eat a bit of EVERYTHING you have been craving." Whoa!

This struggle is truly not just about last night. I have been attacking myself with negative, discouraging talk for years. Pushing myself down into a discouraging cycle of failures.

Today, it stops!

As I sit in the early morning darkness, I want to cry for the person I have attacked and beat up so often. First, I have to admit to myself that I overate out of anger. I rarely display or admit I am pissed. Instead, I swallow it (literally with food) and just be "hurt". Always the positive, peace-maker, quick-to-laugh jolly person.

Today, I am turning a page in a new chapter of my life. I am going to find opportunities to begin to express "I am ______" statements, i.e. angry, upset, disappointed, happy, excited, etc. Will this make my desire to binge go away forever? I am a very down-to-earth real person who never has lived in fantasy land. I am statements will help but I need more.

Optional Plans to bypass a binge situation: Verbalize, Journal, Exercise it out, Guzzle water, make sure I am eating enough healhy calories to prevent over hungry moments of weakness. Keep the crap outta of my house!

I am going to forgive myself for not being perfect and allow for my human-ness. I am a good person, worthy of health. I deserve to be successful. Today, I will stand on top of my own mountain, cheering me on to the goal.

Recognizing, accepting, and putting a plan for self-improvement is what this journey is all about.

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Lots2Lose

10/12/2014 9:14AM

The water is a great solution. Or make the water a little on the sweet or citrus side by slipping some fruit in it. Read the book Mindset by Carol Dweck. It's a pretty good book about developing a growth mindset. Instead of letting someone beat us up or beating us down, it talks about how to grow from the experience and how to face our poor choices. You've got this!

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Leila

Thanks Lots2Lose. I will check out the book.

Shauna

10/12/2014 7:25AM

Sounds like you have an awesome plan in place to overcome the issues. And if this isn't enough, I can tell you will find another solution and another solution - whatever it takes. Stay strong and give yourself lots of credit for the work you are doing!

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Leila

Thanks, Shauna for the encouragement. With God's help, I am going ALL the way to my goal. I can do all things through Christ who strenthens me.

Pet Sitter

10/12/2014 6:12AM

What a beautiful insight! You are beautiful! Do not beat yourself up over one misstep! They are going to happen. It is part of life. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and move on. Tell that voice in your head- "Move over bitch- you mean nothing to me!" Remember you are loved!

Leila

Thanks, Sam!