I should have started a diet bet last math, I should have done a lot of things, which is why I'm here, and nearly at my highest weight ever. Part of it is to blame on medical issues, some on how I eat at times, but mainly complaintacy.
Plus I know from being skinny all that "happiness from losing weight" is bullshit if you're not happy with yourself at any weight. So a lot of my delay was just getting to like me. But I can say I've liked myself and my body as bold as it is... So why the delay?
Fear... I'm finally happy with who I am...no why mess with it. Yes I'm too heavy, I could lose the weight of a supermodel and barely be in a healthy BMI, but I was miserable fat.
i ran a marathin, which started all of my weight problems, as I gained after from becoming sick. I was in the best shape of my life, and I thought I was fat. I didn't post pictures because I was embarrassed... I was embarrassed that even though I could run 26+ miles without walking I SHOULD weigh less and I didn't... I considered myself a failure... A fat failure... Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
if I could go back I'd hit myself, anything to bring myself to reality... I was never that girl... So how did I become her?
by listening to others comments... Oh wow your training for a marathon. That's awesome once you start you'll get so lean... This said after I'd been training for 8 month and actually gained a tad because of muscel mass.
oh wow you can really tell when you're down a few pounds it makes a huge difference.
that one comment made me thing anything overr 163 was me being fat... My failure weight...
Obviously I know that was just people being ignorant and mean... Screw them. Even now, they can suck it, as they will no longer have the power to make me feel bad about myself.
i won't make myself feel bad about myself. I love who I am, I love my body. They only reason I want to lose weight is it will make things easier to do. Going to an amusement park is scary... Will I fit in the seats? Yes I do... But it can be a tight squeeze sometimes.
I want and plan to run again... Less weight on my knees can never be a bad thing.
ModCloth has amazing stylish plus size clothing, so it's. it even about looking cute, I am cute.
It will simply make my life easier. Hence why I'm here.
oh health wise? I am NOT diabetic, I have high good cholesterol, low bad cholesterol, thyroid is a ok, no PCOS, just a random genetic issue and an allergy to antibiotics. So losing weight will allow me to continue to be healthy and healthier, but on paper, without seeing my weight I look amazing!
ok... So here I am... Off my butt and training for the Star Wars Half Marathon Jan 18, ill be diet betting at least till then...n staggering my games every 2 weeks. I'm great at losing weight the first 2 weeks and then maintaining...mi need to keep losing!!