OK, I can see now - this is going to take some self dicipline. I am completely opposed to self dicipline - except for other people. I think they should use it all the time. And then I'd like to be free (around those who are using self dicipline) - to simply act on my impulses. I know - you're saying, "I don't want to meet her while she's driving a car." And you're right
I mean, if I really didn't use self dicipline - I'd be a disaster on the road. But even though I realize I have to use self dicipline in all other area's of life - it's the way a free society works - we don't allow, "Everyman to do what seems right in his own eyes." We expect people to stop at stopsigns - obey the rules of going to work every day and a miriad of other things - somehow - when it comes to eating less and correctly - I rebell against using self dicipline. "Leave me alone" I say, "Bring me that cupcake" or large bowl of extra butter, extra salt popcorn, or Cherry pie - OK - I think food for me, is like a porn addiction for someone else- I've got to get control over my IMPULSES. 'A moment on the lips - forever on the hips' and all that.
More on this later - it at least feels good to talk about it.
And what really helps me - If I'd do it correctly - is my fittness pal- logging in every food I eat and not cheating. I'm going to begin there - it's 10AM here on my small island, off the coast of Georgia - and I'm begining today. As my friends in AA say - one day at a time. Only it's more like one hour, one minute - one food craving at a time.