I am a food addict. i have attended Overeaters anonymous but I live an hours drive from the nearest meeting and I just found myself stopping for fast food on my way there.
I am 27 years old and I have not weighed myself since last year when I had actually been puting effort in to my weight loss. Running 4 times a week, and doing my pilates and at home cycling classes on my off days. I lost about 40 pounds in 6 months but even then I didn't pass my Great Wall of weight: 220lbs. I have not seen the lighter side of 220 pounds in over 10 years.
I have experienced every aha! moment in the book, you know, when something horrible and embarrassig happens because of your weight and you declare that you can't bear to be overweight for a second more! I had to leave a ride because the drop bar wouldn't go over my bust- in front of hourds of my ex-classmates, I ripped my pants bending over at work, and last month I was in Bali where a Hindu high priest called me fat (true story). That last one was an all-time low for me but still no amount of embarrassment has ever seemed to be enough motivation to stick to a diet and workout plan.
I am tired of being the biggest girl in the room. i want to do everyday things like going upstairs without getting winded, and curl up in a chair hugging my knees to my chest. I want to be able to control my food intake. I want to control what I eat, instead of letting what I eat control me.