"Step one of reclaiming my power must be to forgive them and to forgive myself " That's it! First, wow you are an incredible writer.I can tell you that I have felt what you are feeling. That last line is everything. Slowly take the steps to forgive yourself and claim power back. Truly explore why eating is the answer to most ALL the questions, the troubles, the emotions. Then, work on finding a new way to respond. This will take time, be patient. You can do this! You are worthy! Your weight is just a number.You are already well on your way. The first step is the best and most important step!
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