Seems like the last year has been full of excuses, yes I just had a baby (a year ago), but that shouldnt turn me into a couch potato! The diet will always start next week, although I can't beat myself up too much, I did join Michelle Bridges and I did drop a good amount of weight. Didnt quite make it to pre-pregnancy weight but think I let myself get too comfortable so stopped trying so much, before I knew it I was treating myself to a chocolate or ice-cream every day, with the words "one little bit won't hurt" running through my head. Well if you add up all those one little one's before you know it my weight has spirraled out of control!! :(

Well i'm sick of looking in the mirror and seeing whats staring back at me, this person is not recognisable from the one fit and healthy person I used to know. None of my clothes fit me, thinking my washing machine has been shrinking my clothes can surely only go as far as one garment not a whole wardrobe!! Yep, it sucks! Seeing the scales go up instead of down but blaming the dodgy scales that I have also doesnt work, I was kidding myself.

So now here I am, driven to the point of disgust, oh and summer with all those perfect bikini bodies out there. I have drive and determination to pull back what once used to be and to make myself feel happier inside and out.

I know its not going to be easy and I surely like to give myself a good hard start, maybe sucked into false advertising but I decided to splurge a bit of money on my first ever cleanse kit. I actually cant believe I've paid someone a small fortune to basically starve myself and consume what can only be described as melted down plastic (aloe vera). But i'm committed to the cause and I don't like to waste money, so here I am on day 3 excitedly jumping out of bed knowing I have a nice chocolate shake to look forward to plus I get to eat a 600 calorie meal tonight.  Im going to savour this one and the next 6 meals over the following day and that will be my 9 day cleanse finished and hopefully I can move on to healthier eating and smaller portions sizes, which is my real downfall.

So this is my kickstart, I dont know why my new diet and fitness programme had to start in the same week, in hindsight I would have maybe done them a week apart, but I don't like to do anything by halves. So Ive signed upto a bootcamp in the local park 3 times a week, my touch rugby has started back up and soccer season is about to start, I really hope I havent bitten off more than I can chew. What drives me is when I close my eyes I see that person that once used to be, the mum who is running around the park with her son, showing him how to kick a ball, the mother who isnt too shy to take him swimming because I feel like a beached whale. Yep, this is the start of the new me! :)