I've been here before. Except, I was never this big. My weight has gotten way out of hand. Last time I started this was 6 years ago. I was only 404 lbs.
Only...
I can't believe I've reached the point in my journey where I strive to be 404 lbs again.
Last time I did this, I was doing Weight Watchers and going to the gym every morning. I was losing weight because I was going to marry the love of my life, Ashley. I ended up getting done to 330 lbs. I was looking so good!!! But life happened. I had to grow up and the bills started pouring in.
I had to choose what to cut. First it was the Weight Watchers. I was doing fine maintaining while JUST going to the gym. But, it came time to close that too. I couldn't afford it. Ended up gaining about 30 lbs back.
Then came the miscarriage...
My wife and I had been trying for so long to get pregnant. I had been maintaining for 360 lbs for 3 years. She got pregnant! FINALLY! We were so excited and instantly in love with the little peanut growing inside of her. I didn't know if I was ready to be a dad yet. I was scared. At 10 weeks she noticed something felt off. We went into the Doctor's Office and found there wasn't a heart beat anymore.
My heart was ripped out. I went deep into a hidden depression. I had to be strong for Ashley. She needed me. It was hard to bear both of our emotions. So I turned to food.
I hit 400 again within 3 months.
Needless to say it just kept going up. Job-loss, depression, moving and many more burdens left me to 480 lbs. And, here I am. Ready to change.
I had my wife and my Miss Madelyn to do this for. I will do it again! I know I can. I have the strenght!!!
I will do this for them!!!
And this time...
I do it for me...