I started this journey a little bit ago as an unhappy, down in the dumps kinda girl who felt fat and unworthy. I never worked out, and never stopped eating all of the unhealthy junk that I loved so much because I would just constantly think to myself, "Why try? If I try and fail I will just feel worse so it is not worth it." I didn't think it was possible for me to stick to something and truly keep my promises. I didn't love myself enough to take care of myself or to take steps to get myself to a healthier place.
But then the day came that I was able to think clearly while outside of my every day routine. A lightbulb went off. I suddenly decided that it was time to take charge of myself once and for all! I decided it was time to take control of something that has been out of control for way too long! And take control I did! I made small promises to myself, and then made some bigger ones too! I made promises that I knew were POSSIBLE to keep and promises that would be truly ACHIEVABLE no matter what! I started following the carb cycling food plan, started drinking a min of 100 ounces a day, and started working out a min. of 3 times a week. And then I waited... and waited.... I don't even know what I was waiting for! I think I was waiting for fireworks to just shoot through the sky. I was waiting for the cheering, the yelling and the pizzazz, the extreme weight loss, the dreams coming true. But it never came....
And so I thought to myself, "Wait, why am I doing this? What was this for?" And then I remembered. I am doing this for me. I am doing this to take the reighns back, to control something that I CAN and should be controlling. And that is when I realized that no, there are no fireworks coming down for all my hard work; there is no cheer leading team sitting there waving pom poms for my efforts. What I do have though is an inner contentment, an inner peace. A feeling of happiness and well being deep down, something that was missing for so long. And I came to the conclusion that the fact that I am keeping my promises and truly coming through has earned me this inner peace, and this inner peace, this contentment, well, I could not have asked for a better reward!