Oh Wow! I just stepped on the scale. Crap. I can't help but think back to this time last year. I had just returned from a two week dream vacation in Hawaii with one of my best friends. The vacation had been the culmination of (and motivation for) a 30 pound weight loss and complete lifestyle change. I had gone from someone who was athletic, but was not fit and only fairly active - to someone who was active every day, ate healthy, and enjoyed the adventure of life. Kate and I were whale watching in Hawaii in 2013, but 12 months later - I feel like the whale. That fit feeling - that lifestyle seems a hazy memory. Don't get me wrong - some amazing and great things have happened since then. It wasn't a depressing or horrible time period that threw me back into my unhealthy ways. I just got caught up with decades of old habits again and wasn't able or willing to get back out. But the more and more I slip away - the more and more I get depressed about it. When my jeans stopped fitting. When the roller coaster bar was a bit too tight. When I couldn't bike 10 miles without feeling like dying.
I know something needs to change, but unlike last time - I'm struggling to find my motivation. Logically, I have very little excuse not to change and to want to live better, but I still feel lost. In my mind, I want it more than anything in the world - until it comes to doing the things I know I need to do. I want to be better - for my health, for my happiness, for adventure, for fashion, for my amazingly awesome, supportive, and super fit boyfriend, for my family, for my competitive spirit, and for my bikini...
Last year, I worked with a personal nutritionist at Natty Nutrition. It was perfect. Seriously. It was just the eating and exercise plan that I needed. I had huge success with it and was able to stick with it! And it was a good thing it worked because I was paying a pretty penny for it. Now, having left my steady job last year and am now freelancing from home - I can't afford the personalized support and monthly fees. So this DietBet came across my path a few times in the past month. The more I looked at it and the more I thought about it - the better it sounded. Perhaps I have found the right fit. Accountability. Competition. Potential financial gain. I'll start out with the 4% challenge and see where it takes me! No more whale being. Only well being.