It's been a tough week.
Finding the motivation to go to the gym has become difficult. Fortunately, I have a 7k next week that keeps me coming back to the treadmill. However, my healthy eating habits been deteriorating the last few days. As an emotional eater, I turn to food fo a source of comfort and this week I've been presented with an emotional crossroad of sorts.
I have decided to break up with my boyfriend. It makes logical (and emotional, for that matter) sense, but the stress of having that conversation has turned me into an axious stress ball of emotion.
We've only technically been together for a few months preceeded by a year of "come here, get away" and mind games. It's not my intention to paint a picture of a terrible guy. He's sweet. We have a lot in common, but I'm not getting the security I need. He uses the excuse of never been in a relationship before when he messes up and the whole relationship has turned into what feels to me like an internship. I don't want an intern. I want a boyfriend.
This conversation is happening today. He's going to be completely blind-sided. Yet, he shouldn't be, which is another reason why I feel I'm making the right decision.
Send some love my way. Times are a little rocky over here in the world of Kaitlyn.