Hey, everyone! I think it's been since Thursday since I updated.
So Friday morning I went to my Weight Watchers meeting and it was great. The team leader was really supportive and I lost 5 pounds this first week. The topic for discussion was really good, too: mindful eating and how important it is to take time to pay attention to what we eat and enjoy it. This will help us stay satisfied longer.
I needed to hear that, but when I left, I immediately did the opposite. Something personal happened on the phone and I got very emotionally upset. Even though Friday was my "treat day" and I knew i would indulge on plan, I ended up eating something for lunch I hadn't planned on and I knew even while I was doing it that it was totally an emotional response. Which is kind of funny because last week's WW meeting was about emotional eating. The team leader asked us when we eat in an emotional moment, what is it we really want? And can food ever satisfy it? The answer to that last question is NO.
I technically didn't do anything I wasn't supposed to. I didn't eat over my points. But I'm not happy with myself for that lack of control. I want to address the dysfunction involved in such a response. But I don't exactly know how to. I knew what I was doing and I did it anyway.
Today I have still eaten with my points, but I feel a little unsteady, not quite as confident as I have been. I woke up with cravings that seem to have been bugging me since that lunch yesterday. I didn't listen to the cravings, but still. I'm worried about this next week.
I've had the pleasure of talking to and even getting to know some of you wonderful, encouraging people. I could really use some encouragement right now. I had great results this week and I want to see similar ones next week. This is really important to me and I don't want to sabatage myself. I want to ask for help now before I truly mess up. What is your advice to become stronger and have better will power? What helps keep you motivated?