Day 40
(Friday)
Ah! Friday! Finally! It has been really slow at work lately because the kids are not here. So it didn't really feel like a Friday. I had breakfast and it was good. But for some reason I was ravenous by 11:00 AM. Meaning I had an hour of hunger pangs to deal with before lunch time at 12. Water helped but it was still a struggle. For lunch I had the southwest salad again and I devoured it. I love a really, good balanced salad, it's unfortunate that Japan doesn't really see it as a main dish. It's a struggle to find restaurants out here that do.
After lunch I took a small 30 minute walk. It was good. The weather is finally feeling like spring. After getting home and changing I went for a run. It was a really good run. I found my tempo and I'm pretty sure I could've run a couple more kilometers but I didn't want to over do it because I had a 10k to run the next day. So I got home showered and immediately started preparing the dinner I was going to take to the pizza party. I kind of felt like I was preparing for battle. LOL. Not only was I preparing myself with my weapons (my food, 2L bottle of water) I was also trying to strengthen my mindset and my conviction.
I got a call from a friend right before I was about to head out and he asked me to join him at a bar with his friend that came to visit from the US. I said sure why not. I am only going to get one drink I told myself. A glass of red wine and I'm done. So I get there and it seems like they are getting ready for the night crowd and because of that they can only serve beer for the moment. Well damn. So I got a corona (which I hadn't had in ages so it was good) but I really would've preffered the wine. Whatever.
I get to my friends house and it smells amazing. My appetite is finally starting to kick up and I think quick! eat your dinner! So I start to eat my dinner. Some poke fun at my food but to be honest I really, really didn't care. It was delicious. And it wasn't what one would call "diet" food. It was steak, asparagus, and mashed cauliflower (OMG I am definitely making that a staple). There was about half a cup of marinara sauce left from the pizza making so I threw that in there as well. Now all in all I had about 3 slices of pizza, 1 piece of brownie, 1 chocolate cluster. I had no alcohol other than the glass of beer at the bar.
To be honest I still don't know how I feel about that night. On one hand I was so, so proud of myself for not drinking. You guys do not understand how amazing this is. I finally feel like I am learning how to drink alcohol correctly. But on the other had I wish I could've abstained from eating that pizza.
Nutrition:
- Breakfast: Warm Quinoa Cereal
- Lunch: Southwest Salad
- Dinner: Steak, Asparagus, Shitake Mushrooms, Mashed Cauliflower, Pizza Sauce, 3 Slices of pizza,1 brownie, 1 corona, 1 chocolate cluster
- Snacks: Protein Shake, Peanut Butter and Celery
Sleep: 7 Hours
Water: 3 Liters
Exercise: 7.25km (6:44/km)
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Day 41
(Saturday)
The day after I woke up and literally the first thing I thought was "This is a new day." I am not going to sit on my ass and be bummed because I had three slices of pizza. I was going to put in work today! I got up, made myself some oatmeal, and had a cup of coffee. I had to be prepared to go food shopping and everyone knows you can't go hungry! After food shopping and some meal prep I cleaned my room. And by cleaned I mean spent 2.5 hours cleaning my room and it is now pristine and beautiful! Coming home to a clean room feels so good!
I didn't really have a big lunch. Or much of a lunch at all. I had two snacks. Greek yogurt with some jam and apples with peanut butter and a coffee with some almond milk. But I was satiated, I was by no means hungry. And then I prepared for my run. To be completely honest with you when I was putting my shoes on I wasn't really feeling this 10k that I was about to run. But I got out there and ran anyway. Half way through the run I realized that if I kept up my pace I would have a new PR for my 10k AND my 5K!!!!!!! It was an amazing feeling. As I was running I was thinking about how that moment of weakness last night didn't define me, but how the fact that I am out here running 4 days a week, even when I might not feel like it, does. I am changing. I know it.
After I began to get ready because I had a group of friends staying over that night. It seemed like what happened the night before really strengthened my resolve and I knew that night I would be in control. That everything I chose would be a concious decision. I was not worried the way I was worried on friday.
So they got to my house and we had a glass of wine. It was really good Italian wine. Good wine makes me happy lol. Then we went to the bar where I told myself the only thing I would have was wine. Working out how much and what I was drinking is much simpler that way and I really, really enjoy red wine. That night I had two glasses of wine. So in total I had three glasses of wine. (and some peanuts) but I regret NONE of it. I damn deserved it after that new PR I pulled that day so unexpectedly. And probably the biggest accomplishment of the night. My friends ordered pizza that night at the bar. Three separate times. And I was not tempted ONCE. Talk about willpower! It was great.
Nutrition:
- Breakfast: Cranberry, Walnut Oatmeal
- Lunch: Greek Yogurt with Jam, Peanut Butter with Apples, Coffee with Almond Milk
- Dinner: Italian Ground Chicken, 3 cups of wine
- Snacks: Protein Shake, 5 Strawberries
Sleep: 8 Hours
Water: 3-4 Liters
Exercise: 10.6km (longest run yet!); New PR for 10k= 1:04:37; New PR for 5k= 31:30 (I am almost under 30 minutes!!!!! GAHHHHH)
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Day 42
(Sunday)
This was the day I should've been prepared for. The day after. Now I knew we would have waffles that day because we planned for it but lunch and dinner were up in the air and that made me nervous. Now I can proudly say that I can and will from now drink my coffee black. When I am at home I usually use some almond milk but outside I know I can have it black. Anyways that was good. I LOVE waffles! After while we were walking around we walked past this croquette stand and I abstained from getting one! Point 1 for Kim. After we went to a bakery. So in order to better arm myself I ate a boiled egg from the convience store. I ended up getting a cheese bread anyway because they are so, so yummy. After walking around for another hour or so we decided that it was time for lunch.
Thankfully there was this new restuarant that opened up by us that was amazing. Get this. This place serves SALAD. As a meal! Like OMG. That never happens. I knew then that this place was an excellent choice for lunch. I didn't get the salad though because I was afraid that it would be really small and not filling but my friend did and it looked amazing! I'm glad that I now know where to eat with my friends should they want to eat out! YAYYYYYY Instead I ordered a Chicken dish that came with soup, salad, vegetables and a slice of bread. I've had a lot more bread than usual so I was kind of worried but not really. I would just have to eat less carbs for dinner.
After my visiting friends left my other friend came to watch Scandal with me. For dinner that night we planned on eating salad. She knows that I am trying to lose weight and is understanding. I also know that she can't just eat salad even if it is balanced. So I told her that she could bring bread if she wished.
She brought the bread and I was once again not tempted. I was tempted though when it came to the meat I chose. I ate chicken thigh instead of chicken breast which is definitely not as lean but I figured if it could help me fight the temptation to eat bread why not? My friend also had a glass of white
wine. I had none. Yay me! I did have three pieces of chocolate that she brought but that was all I let myself have. All in all I didn't think it was a bad day. If anything I thought that it could have gone much worse.
But apparently this weekend didn't come without a price. I am up 1 kilo from last time (that is two days ago) so I am hoping it is just water weight. I really, really, really want to win Jillian Michaels' dietbet. LIKE REALLY. I will definitely try to be more judicious with my eating this week. That is, after I pass the hurdle of today's goodbye party for my teachers which involves all you can drink alcohol and not so healthy food. SIGH. It never ends! Oh well if anything it is a good excercise on self restraint. I just hope it doesn't overcome me. lol. There you have it, my weekend.
Have a good day everyone!!!
And may the odds be ever in your favor!!!
Nutrition:
- Breakfast: Latte (at home), Blueberry waffle, cup of coffee
- Lunch: Chicken in Soy Sauce, Salad, Soup, and Bread
- Dinner: Salad with Salsa, Chicken, Beans, Tomato
- Snacks: Boiled Egg, Cheese Bread, 3 pieces of chocolate
Sleep: 6 Hours
Water: 2 Liters
Exercise: REST DAY